I also loved the quickness, the ugliness, the assured fatality of James M Cain. That giddy sense that doom is cool. You just met a woman, you had your first kiss, you're six weeks away from the gas chamber ........
A man is given one right at birth ; to choose his own death. But if he chooses because he is weary of life then his entire existence has been without meaning.
No relief from boredom even in their periodic plunges from euphoria to despair or their rapid rise back to the top again. They wake up mornings such as this, all but out of their minds with remorse.