Confusing the writer with his work is a dangerous game, of course and Ellroy expresses surprise that he is often portrayed as a tough guy when, in truth, he had no stomach for serious crime or violence even as he lived a disordered and profligate life. "I was pathetic, physically weak, drug and booze debilitated, a buffoon, and scared of my own shadow. But you know what ? My shadow was something to be scared of. I saw the enemy and it was me".
Out of the Dark